I guess the reverend in F. Sionil Jose’s The God Stealer was right: It takes cataclysm, something tragic to knock a man back to his wits.
And oh, what a knockdown it was.
To say that 2015 has been a difficult year would be a massive understatement. It has, in fact, been a year of turmoil. Of rude awakenings and overdue realizations.
I’d like to think, though, that I emerged from all that stronger and wiser–even if by just a teensie weensie bit. My hands and my heart may tremble but I will no longer be paralyzed with fear.
As this past year has shown me, I am not alone. When push comes to shove, I have people who have my back. And even at the most trying of times, God’s unfailing grace shines through.
So hello, 2016. Let’s turn things around.
A notification pops up. Curiosity wins over fatigue and I click on that tiny red icon.
Oh goody, it’s my daily dose of memories!
As I scroll down, my half-shut eyes open just a wee bit wider with each entry. I come across emotionally laden song lyrics that immediately trigger the play button in my head and I start humming along, wondering about the circumstances which surrounded me then.
I encounter a lot of posts about films and books and I can’t help but wish I still had the luxury of time to curl up with a good book or watch the latest indie movie.
Then there’s the occasional political commentary sandwiched between leftover teenage angst and cringe-worthy melodrama.
Did I really say this? What was I thinking?
Oh, I remember this! I can’t believe it’s been that long!
A myriad of emotions course through me as I travel back in time and revisit moments of triumph and of loss. I wax nostalgic over what was and marvel at what still is.
The sky was overcast when we got off the van at Hayanggabon Port in Claver, Surigao del Norte. I nervously crossed the narrow plank leading to the boat and positioned myself at the rear end of the vessel.
It had already started to rain when we left the port and our guide told us that it would take us at least an hour to get to Hidden Island Resort. With the dreary weather, it was all just greys and dull blues with occasional pops of green.
The boat’s engine was really loud so there was barely any conversation during the duration of the boat ride. But the moment we caught sight of the islands of Bucas Grande, we couldn’t help oohing and aahing at the sheer beauty of the place. All the fatigue and muscle pain seemed to leave our bodies as the boat maneuvered around an island which, as we soon discovered, was actually our destination.
After unpacking our things and wolfing down a couple of Nutella sandwiches, we trooped to the boardwalk and went all trigger-happy with our cameras.
To my utter delight, a rainbow appeared in the east as if to welcome us.
At about the same time, a magnificent light show began to unfold in the west. I watched in awe as the mellow yellows and gloomy greys gave way to blazing oranges and fiery reds with the setting of the sun, then to tropical pinks and lush purples with the coming of dusk.
I stood in silent reverie as the last trace of daylight faded from the sky.
And just before darkness completely enveloped the horizon, I turned back and followed my companions back to our living quarters.
“Things will get messy at times and that’s okay,” articles on parenting always say. But when things don’t go according to plan, the second part of that statement sometimes gets thrown out of the window.
This morning, I found myself almost at my wit’s end when the much-awaited Easter egg hunt turned out to be a series of unfortunate events. This tragicomedy started with a frazzled mom unintentionally breaking one of the uncooked eggs and ended with a flustered little boy refusing to continue painting after accidentally dropping one of the two remaining eggs.
Judging by the look on my son’s face, I knew that an egg hunt was out of the question so we just carried everything back inside and had breakfast.
When I walked into the bedroom hours later, fragments of painted eggshells scattered on the desk greeted me.
“The best laid schemes of Mice and Men, oft go awry,” they seemed to say.
I looked at the little boy intently peeling an egg and asked, “Are you happy?”
“Yes!” he replied with a grin on his face and a twinkle in his eye.
And with that, all traces of disappointment (his and mine) were completely erased.
“Are these baked?” I asked the lady at the counter as I pointed at the mini blueberry cheesecakes in the fridge.
She nodded and I almost let out a whoop. I had been lamenting the fact that other than Coffeeworks (which sells too-tangy-for-my-taste cheesecake), cakeshops and coffeeshops in my hometown only have no-bake cheesecake on their menus. So imagine how elated I was to find that Sugar Rush sells these baked goodies.
I had just eaten a red velvet cupcake so I mustered every inch of self-control I had and ordered just one blueberry cheesecake–plus a macaroon con leche cupcake for my dad and a banana choco cupcake for my mom–to go.
I usually hurkle-durkle on weekends but that following morning, I got out of bed as soon as I woke up. I excitedly took out the mini blueberry cheesecake from the fridge and made myself a cup of peppermint tea.
As I savored the taste of blueberry cheesecake in my mouth, a scene from Wong Kar-Wai’s My Blueberry Nights played in my head.
Jeremy: At the end of every night, the cheesecake and the apple pie are always completely gone. The peach cobbler and the chocolate mousse cake are nearly finished. But there’s always a whole blueberry pie left untouched.
Elizabeth: So what’s wrong with the blueberry pie?
Jeremy: There’s nothing wrong with the blueberry pie. It’s just [that] people make other choices. You can’t blame the blueberry pie.
Well, I’d pick cheesecake every single time. Sorry, blueberry pie.
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It’s funny how I started planning my son’s birthday celebration as early as last year but still ended up working on it down to the wire. As they say, “The greatest inspiration is the deadline.”
This year’s theme was inspired by my son’s love for cars and the toy truck he received last Christmas. Like last year, I spent countless hours scouring Pinterest for inspiration. I was determined to make this as DIY as I could despite my insanely hectic schedule.
My son started going to school this year so we decided to have a mini party at school. To minimize food mishaps, we packed the mac n’ cheese in styro food containers, which I couldn’t resist customizing.
My original plan involved a doughnut tower dotted with the truck cutouts as toppers but we weren’t able to get our hands on some yummy doughnuts so we rehashed last year’s design: custard cake + wafer sticks + road signs + my son’s Viking Toys tractor + the ubiquitous birthday candle.
To avoid making too much of a mess, we kept the cupcakes frosting-free as well. Fortunately, my aunt had some chocolate rocks on hand so she sprinkled some on top of the banana nutella cupcakes. I forgot to place the toppers I made though.
I also made some traffic cone-inspired party hats. I couldn’t find anything big enough to trace and I didn’t have a drawing compass so I used the definition of a circle (a set of points equidistant from a point called the center) as a guide.
It was a bit tiring at first and I almost didn’t push through with the party hats but I’m glad I did because the kids looked so adorable wearing them.
I was so tired with all the preparations, I could barely keep my eyes open during the party. It was all worth it though because, as my son affirmed, it was indeed a very happy birthday.
I grew up listening to the Beach Boys and I have always been a fan of their music. As I grew older and came to know the story behind the band and the music, I became an even bigger fan–of Brian Wilson, in particular.
So I was over the moon when BBC Music released this version of God Only Knows.
I was going to say that this song used to hold a special significance in my heart but I realize that isn’t exactly true. Just hearing the song again opened a floodgate of emotions.
And although so many things have changed and we are no longer the same, I guess the impact of a song–especially one as beautiful as this–will never fade.
Did you ever have something so good, you got so revved up that you jumped out of blog hibernation? Well, I just did.
These cupcakes from Sugar Rush were so yummy, I just had to end my blogging hiatus.
I’ve always been a big fan of banana cupcakes so I knew I would enjoy the choco banana cupcake even before I tasted it.
Not only did this cupcake not disappoint, it actually raised the bar upon which I will henceforth be judging banana cupcakes.
I usually don’t go for chocolate cupcakes. I find them rather ho-hum. But Sugar Rush’s chocolate cupcake made me go ooh-la-la. The texture was perfectly moist and the ganache was absolutely scrumptious. And the best thing about it was that it was oh so chocolatey without being cloyingly sweet.
I wasn’t able to sink my teeth into these babies but I intend to do so in the near future.
If restaurants get Michelin Stars, cupcakes get the Peewee Level. And these cupcakes from Sugar Rush are definitely Peewee Level cupcakes.
017 Dona Teodora Blvd., Brgy. San Miguel, Iligan City
*A Peewee Level cupcake is a cupcake that’s so deliriously good, the first bite renders you speechless. It is named after my cousin’s girlfriend, Peewee.
For a lot of people–myself included–my life has taken an unexpected detour this past month.
Despite being a graduate of Public Administration, I’ve never done administrative work (except for that month-long internship back in college). Heck, I’ve never even had an 8-to-5 job!
But here I am with a Position Description Form that clearly states my administrative position and the duties and responsibilities that come with it.
I’ve done a lot of writing before but never the sort of writing that my current job entails. And I must admit that I’ve felt like fish out of water on several occasions.
My most recent assignment even gave me nightmares for three nights in a row! Inception-type nightmares where I’m in the office drafting the policy proposal and I wake up and find myself still in the office still writing the darn proposal and I wake up again but I’m still there! It happens about four times before I finally wake up and find myself in bed–with my laptop and the outline of the policy proposal beside me.
I finally finished the darn thing yesterday and it seems like a massive boulder has been lifted from my shoulders.
I have two new policy proposal assignments lined up but I no longer feel like I’m in over my head.
My so-called zigzag alignment has often been a point of contention (sometimes even a deal breaker) for the powers that be. But here, everything I’ve learned from the various fields I’ve delved into all come together. And contrary to what some people think, my brain gets full mileage.
So while I feel that I’ve ventured into uncharted territory, I also feel that things have somehow come full circle. That I haven’t really strayed at all.
Some days just suck.
I should’ve known from the way things were going when the clock struck twelve that today was going to be one of those days.
I tried to channel that glass half-full schtick but it just wouldn’t stick. I also tried looking for that proverbial silver lining but all I could find was a sky full of rain clouds.
I did get a few minutes of peace and I momentarily forgot about how awfully things were going. But just when I thought the worst was over–BAM!–another mishap hit me smack in the face. It was as if the Universe was saying, “Ha! I’m not done with you just yet!”
And sure enough, things came gleefully crashing down. Like dominoes. One after the other.
As if that wasn’t enough, a torrential downpour began to fall. I wanted to shake my fist and yell, “That’s right! When it rains, it pours! Very punny, Universe. Very punny.”